Blue sun.....

Today

Today...........

I am crying loudest when i am crying with silent tears,

I am lying to you when i am telling you that i don't want you anymore,

I am weakest when i am walking away from you with all my strength 

I am imprisoning me in pain when i am freeing you from me

I am buying you this gift of love when i am penniless

I am hoping that 'still' you would know.......

Date:24th March'12

Love is not hurt

Un secret.......

Here is hurry,
Here is rush,
no time to talk deep,
no time to see you clear ,
i am also hurrying
i am also rushing
like a thief
like an outlaw
i am hiding
i am pretending
Everyday an even higher wall is build
Everyday is a prayer that may all walls be broken 
May love be stronger......
Aameen!!!!

Let your Love shine

The rose is red, the violet's blue

The honey's sweet, and so are you

Thou are my love and I am thine

I drew thee to my Valentine

The lot was cast and then I drew

And Fortune said it should be you.

(English nursery rhyme)


I have found that the most difficult times are not the ones in which nobody loved me. But the times my heart was so closed that I didn't love anybody. Or anything, for that matter. Life was grey and without color. Not only did I feel as if I was nobody's special someone, it worked the other way around. Nothing was special to me too. Not only did that apply to people , I was hard to satisfy in those days. Nothing really touched my heart, so in return I started to be more and more demanding. I thought that my heart would open if the other person did the right thing, said the right thing etc. I forgot that the right thing didn't stand a chance, against my closed heart. Because as beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so is love. It takes one to know one. When you love, it appears as if all of a sudden you see love everywhere. Love is as much a state of being as a real feeling for another human being. Did you know that parents of new born babies carry a pink cloud in their aura? Love colors your world.

My best friend has bought a dog and although she asked us to warn her when she would start to go 'doggieismykiddie' and call herself 'mom', guess who she is sending her valentine card to? I would love to watch the scene were she finds the card 'Ooooh look what mommy found in the mail, Harold?' . Yes, without a warning the chihuahua was named Harold, for it is 'such a manly name'. At that moment I knew she was beyond warning. I picture her opening the envelope and happily singsonging the message to the unfazed Harold. Because I love my friend I like to see her happy, and to watch how she cannot contain her love for the dog. So I am going to add a little extra line on the poem so she can share it with her Harold.

Love does funny things to people. Just call the name of their sweetheart and the light literally starts to shine out of their eyes. Is there a more endearing sight? Or my daughter writing me her first valentines card full of xxxxxx kisses and exclamation marks. Did you count them mommy? All done in her favorite neon pink colour.

Loud, proud love.

The courtly love from the old days is a far cry from the dating game nowadays. The knight would proudly carry the flag, the price sheep or the rose for his sweetheart. There was honor in showing who'd you love and dedicating your achievements to your special someone.


Nowadays it is almost embarrassing to tell someone you love them. Being true to your heart is not the fashionable thing to do. Better keep your feelings a secret. Better to be indifferent and 'easy going'. At the same time. And than trying to detect the true meaning of the 'friend/unfriend' action. Or the 'not calling back' after you have been sleeping together. Or emailing the most sensitive information but being rude on the first date.


In contrast to what we are lead to believe, speaking from the heart, doesn't make you weak. Simply speaking your truth will empower you. It also invites the other person to be true and real. There is nothing shamefull in loving someone. It is a gift and it is rare and lovely. And you should be proud of being a person with a heart, with love.


Like a knight in shining armour wear your love like a price. Be proud of who you love and be proud that you love.


Let your love shine.



Pearl (taken from a writer/counsellor)